BEFORE THE YEAR START
This is my first year in college. I am not
so interested in how the school will be like because I really don’t care about
it. The most important thing for a college girl is not studying but to find a
perfect guy. Since I already found my future husband Kyle, I do not need to pay
any attention on my studying. I just need to wait for his proposal in the next
four years. If I am lucky enough maybe I can become the first freshman girl who
gets proposed.
9---1
I am so excited that my roommate is a
Korean girl named Sookan. OMG That is the first time for me to talk with a
Korean girl! She is so much different than the others, she is shy, not very
talkative, and so special. She was wearing a Hankook when I first saw her. That
is a traditional Korean dress which really suites her skin color. I have never
expected that I can be roommate with such a special girl.
---2
Today I went shopping with Sookan together, I found a
pink pillow which seemed really match our room but she doesn’t really like it.
I asked her if she wants it she said: ”No. I do.” Which made me worried about
if she likes it or not. She doesn’t have many colth in her luggage so I wanted
to buy some clothes with her together but she rejected. She doesn’t show her
thoughts very often.
---3
I do not really see my roommate every
day. She is just so busy. Every morning she wakes up early then me and always
come back from library at mid night. I just can’t understand why can’t she
enjoy her college life. I don’t really like this school because Kyle is a
little bit far away from me and we are now on a long distance relationship,
what if he cheated on me?
---4
Today is a sunny Sunday. I wrote to Kyle.
I miss him so much! I am so glade to see his hand writing again. I haven’t wrote
to him for 2 weeks because he was so busy with his homework. I introduced
Sookan to him. He also told me his new roommate is named Tom. A long distance
relationship is terrible. I can’t keep my self from worrying about there might
be some girl who is more beautiful than me. I asked Kyle if he really loves me.
I asked him does he ever cheated on me. He told me he really loves me, but he
thinks I don’t trust him.
10---1
The school is terrible! Why is there so much
homework! How does my roommate finish her homework every day? Why does she have
so many time to study!
Even though I don’t really care about my
score but my parents do care about it. I should ask my roommate about how to
manage time.
---2
I don’t understand why does my roommate
likes Marci. She is so quiet and not talkative. There must be many secrets
behind her. Anyway that is not my business. I only need Kyle. We wrote to each
other more frequently, almost 3 times a week. I can feel his love to me, I can’t
keep imagine our wedding. It must be in a forest with white lily everywhere.
---3
The day is so boring, everyday is same.
Wake up in the morning, go to school, have lunch, do homework, go to bed. I
hope vacations can come soon so that I can go to see my Kyle. What if I give
him this diary as his next birthday gift? Then he will know how much I miss him
everyday.
---4
Why did I chose to come to a Girl’s
school! I haven’t see a man for two whole month already. All the girls here
don’t have make up and wear perfume. Lisa told me she did that was because
there are no man in this school so she doesn’t have to dress up pretty. I
really can not understand them. Isn’t make your self pretty is what a girl
should do everyday?
11---1
I hate the weather today. It was raining
this morning. The weather has already been cold. I really miss my parents and
my friends. But thanksgiving break is coming soon so I can go to see them.
Sookan, doesn’t look well today. She might
had cold. I suggested her to go to health center but she rejected. She said she
haven’t finish her homework yet. Then she went to library. I am going to invite
her to spend her Thanksgiving break with me.
---2
The weather was
so bad today, I don’t even want to gat up this morning. Oh I really want to
sleep in my warm bed with Kyle on my side in a cold weather. The snow day is
coming soon I guess. I really want to see Kyle now, I never know I can miss him
so much before.
---3
I went to health
center today and got a flu shot today. The weather has became colder and
colder, almost every one got cold. I try to avoid fever so that I won’t worry
about the virus pass on through saliva. All the leaves has fallen, only the
trunk is still there. I have never felt the campus is so quiet before.
---4
Even though the
food in dinning hall is not very good but I still gained a lot of weight. What
should I do!!! I can’t see Kyle in such a fat body! I am going to keep diet
from tomorrow! I am going to eat less meat and more vegetable, also I am going
to run 5 miles after school! OMG how could I became so fat!
12---1
I found keeping
diet is a really hard thing. But I think I can make it. I can do anything for
Kyle. He is my world! I felt more and more tired every day maybe caused by
diet. My hairs are also dropping. Today before the Chemistry class I went up
stairs and almost spilled down. But the good news is that I have lost 5 pound
already.
---2
I am so excited
this is the first snow day!!! I can finally have time to enjoy my breakfast in
by bedroom. Sitting on the bed, reading books, enjoy my coffee, and look at the
snow out side. The scenery makes me remember Kyle. Last year during the
Christmas I really had a great fun with him. I really hope he can be right by
my side now.
---3
This is the last
day before Christmas Break. I have been waiting for this day for a whole month!
But, the flu shot seems doesn’t really worked, I still got flu. Also Sookan had
a heavy stomachache yesterday. I really want to sleep next to her but I don’t
want her also have the flu. I really don’t know what to do when I saw her lying
in the bed of health center. Her face was so pale.
---4
I finally arrived
at home. The heavy snow made me spent 16 hours on the way back home. I took the
train back, it was so cold in the train, the sofa was not soft, and window was
frozen. But all that is ok for me because I am going to see my Kyle! On the way
back I couldn’t stop smelling when thought him.
1---1
This is a totally
new year. I did not go to Times Square as usual. I know it is very romantic to
kiss with lover at the moment at there but I am so familiar with this city. I
have already studied in that city for 3 months. Everywhere is romantic when
Kyle is with me. Even though we write to each other 3 times a week, but I still
have so many things to tell him when we are together. He said I was like a
puppy who always want to be by his side.
---2
This day still
comes. I have to go back school and study. I am not going to have any vacation
in the next 3 months. I am also not going to see him for a long time. This is
the first day without him. I only left him for 18 hours and I already started
to miss him.
---3
Life is so hard!
Why is the weather so nice today! When the snow day comes again I can stay in
my dorm and sleep for a whole day. I really miss the time during Christmas. I
had a gift from my mom which is the best gift every. It was a totally new
bedroom. I finally don’t have to sleep in that pink bedroom like a little girl
any more.
---4
I miss my mom’s
cooking. :( The food in school is the worst food ever. I can’t tell why did I
become so fat in the last semester. All the exams has finish and the life is so
boring. I am going shopping with Lily this weekend and but a nice boots. My
poor roommate kept losing weight, her face was smaller then the first time I
saw her.
2---2
Time past so fast.
1/12 of the year has passed. But since time has passed so fast that means I can
see Kyle soon. I only have to wait two more month and I can see his face again.
He also misses me. He wrote a page of letter with full of my name on it. I can
feel his love from every letter he wrote to me. I collected all of them in my
shelf so I can read them whenever I miss him.
--3
There is only one
telephone in this school, I can never have a chance to call Kyle. Mom and dad
recently bought a telephone ,and I tried to call them by school phone once. It
was amazing to hear your parents voice from that small thing especially there
were such far away from me. Technology is amazing! I feel so regret why didn't
I chose a technology major.
---4
Every one thinks
I am a social girl but I know I am not. Since I was young I always go to
different party and watch them talk with other adults. They all come to me and
said:"look how adorable your daughter is!" That was the first time
for me to learned how to praise other people. My parents made me spent all of
my childhood in various parties. No one ever asked if I really want to stay in
that kind of place. They never care about my feelings.
3---1
This is the first
day of March. Spring break is coming. This also means 2/3of my school year has
finished. I haven't down anything. Different finals and exams gave me lots of
pressure. So does Kyle. We didn't connect with each other very often. Both of
us were so busy on or study and had no time to miss each other. But we both
know we love each other. I trust him.
---2
Tomorrow is going
to be spring break. I miss every one in my family so much, especially my mom. I
thought I have grown up and will never miss them but I am wrong. I can not wait
to go home right now and give them a big hug.
All exams has
finished, I finally had time to write to Kyle. I first received his letters. He
told me he will come to spend spring break with me, both our parents agreed. So
I used 5 papers to tell him what happened in school and how much I miss him. I
just want to tell him everything. Every time we stay together we have so many
things to talk. I think that is the feeling of being a perfect couple.
---3
I arrived at home
earlier than Kyle. The telephone starts to ring when I was preparing dinner. It
was from Kyle. He called form train station. He wanted me to pick him up there.
So I went and let my mom finish the dinner. On the way to train station, I saw
trees starts to be a little bit green. The spring is coming. He stood in the
crowded, wearing a black jacket, had his back toward me. I still could
recognize him from the sight of his back. I called his name far away, and he
turned, holding a bunch of roses and walked toward me. " We have been
together for 2 years. In these two years we shared happiness together, shared
sadness together. I have never found any girl as perfect as you do. I will be
so glad if I can spend the rest of my life with you. I promise I will always
love you. So, dear Ellen, will you marry me?" He said. I can never forget
that feeling. My heart beat was quickly, and my whole face was hot. I cried
happily and said:" Yes!" Then I was so excited and forget what
happened next.
---4
We decided to
tell our parents. As we imagined, they were shocked and resist. " How can
you to get marry I such a young age!" " Ellen is still a
freshman!" " You know nothing about love!" They said. I was not
angry at all because we had a plan. If they resist then we will elope. We will
have our life. Maybe live in a forest or some where else.
4---1
Sookan is the
first person that I told about my engagement. She seemed to be happy for me but
after I told her that elope, she started to tell me how important it is to have
parents’ agreements. I laughed after she left. She said like she has
experienced engagement before.
I can’t wait to
tell every details to Peggy. She will announce this news during dinner. Then
every one will know I am the fist freshman who got engagement.
---2
I finally became
the most famous girl in this school. Before others come and congratulate me, I
was called to president’s office. As every one knows, there is nothing goods
will happened if you go there. As I have imagined, all teacher know my
engagement and that is also the reason why I went to office. One of the
teachers called my parents and congratulated them. The teacher doesn’t know my
parents were unhappy with this. They got angry with wanted teacher force me to
study.
---3
Some interesting
girls asked if I really engaged. For I announced on April 1st, it
was April fool’s day. How would I make fun of my engagement?
Time past so
fast. Leaves were tinny, new green, and fresh. Spring means new. I am also
going to start a new life. As Sookan has said, I need to listen to my parents’
idea. Since they accepted my engagement, I should spend more time on study as a
reward of my parents’ love.
5---1
Today Sookan went
back room really late. I was sleeping when she walked in quietly. She was
crying and holding a letter. I pretended I was sleeping, just saw her set there
and cried. The relationship between me and Sookan is kind of weird recently. We
do not talk with each other and she doesn’t tells me her secrets any more. She tells
everything to her friends but not me. I have so many friends and do not need to
worry about losing a friend. But she is special to me. She taught me many
Korean cultures and social skills. We used to be best friend on the start of
last school year. Things changed.
---2
I dreamed Kyle
yesterday night. He wrote to me yesterday and invited me to his prom. His roommate
Tom is interested in my Korean roommate and wants to invite Sookan. I haven’t
told her yet. I need to find a appropriate way to talk to her. I am kind of
worry about her body. Her face was pail all day long. Even though she has
changed her courses but she doesn’t spend more time on social as she promised.
---3
I start to find a
little fun of studying. Doing homework is as interesting as talking gossip news
with friends. School tells me knowledge. I can’t imagine I have wasted so many
time on how to escape from school. If I realized this earlier maybe I can study
in the same collage as Kyle does.
---4
Easter is not as
interesting as I have imagined. Life is full of chocolate, chocolate, and chocolate.
Every dinner in dinning hall there is chocolate cake and chocolate cookies.
Maybe the dinning hall has so much chocolate from every holiday and don’t know
how to use. Sookan told me Korean eats sea weed soup, sticky rice, and red bean
cake in their festival. Not like America, we have chocolate every festival.
6---1
I had my first
long weekend today. Because this break is too short and I don’t need to go back
home so my parents drove me to Boston. We spent 3 hours on the way. When I saw
the sea again, I know I have arrived at Boston. There are many collages and
museum in this city. For it is a city near sea, there is no reason for us not
to eat seafood. That was the first time to travel with my parents after I
studied in collage.
---2
I received my
report card of this school year today. All those things said by teachers are
similar: You became a better student after engagement. Keep working.
I don’t understand
why teachers give us report card before the end of this school year, we even
haven’t finished our finals yet, and my papers haven’t due yet.
---3
Today is prom
day. Sookan really shocked me. She went to the prom wearing a black dress and a
pearl necklace. She was like a shinning star in the prom. Tom is not a good man
as I thought. He was attracted by Sookan and even started to imagine she has
became his girlfriend. I danced with Kyle. Since we have engaged, the prom is
like a pre wedding for us.
---4
I asked every one
else who lives in the same dorm with me. I am the only one who received report
card. Before I rushed to admission office, I received the letter from my
parents. From the letter, they asked me if I still remember a teacher form
RISD. They showed my paintings to that teacher and that teacher took them back
to school. After teachers’ confers, the
school gave an offer from RISD at the start of this month. The reason why my
parents didn’t told for such a long time was because they were also not sure
about it.
I promise this is
the second best news I have ever heard in my life. RISD is always my dream
school and I can finally study in this school now. About my current school, I
only stayed here for one year so I don’t have many memories about this school.
Of course I will chose RISD! How could my parents needed time to think!
THE END OF SCHOOL
YEAR
I did not tell
any one except Kyle. I don’t want any one knows I am such a impersonal person.
I really hope I can fly to Rhodes Island right now and starts my new school
year. My life will change a lot in the future. I can become a great designer
and work for fashion. Not like my mom, I don’t need to stay at home for a whole
day. I will have my own job. I finally know what I want.
